30/3/2013 Drawing for the month completed

So yay~ the drawing is completed, have a look if you want: http://lolrapid.deviantart.com/art/Musical-Dreamscape-Remake-2013-362152254
Now the thing that are left is the collection icons, the avatar and maybe info updates.
I had been sleeping the whole day because of my body clock time being topsy turvy..
I share the bedroom with 2 other family members.. the problem is my brother always seem to have something to do during midnight so he doesn't want to off the light... Like managing cards?!
I cannot sleep with the lights on... though my childhood was completely otherwise.

During my early ages, I could see things with intricate design as spooky faces such as on the curtains. And do you know about those eye fluids floating around our eyes? That we can't usually see  without a microscope but since its so close to our retina we could see it?... Yeap that stuff was intricate-enough when focused on and back then I didn't know what it was... So whenever I went to sleep these floating stuffs or the automated colors placed into my vision when I'm in a dark room just causes me to see more unwanted images. And so I rather have the lights on to blind away those images. Guess karma does have a way on returning it onto me.

Another thing not related to all that childhood spooks is I could make myself hear clicks in my ear as well and don't even know what causes that as well... Still curious  as to what it is... I haven't tried searching it up yet..

As for the drawing... as usual the scanner killed the realistic shades of pencil color... so I edited it to be sharpened with photoshop on certain places..

So its 4:11 in the morning and I am just awoken... mmm I might update this post later...
Bye~

-=Updates=-
Played CS for a long time and spend sometime with my PS Vita..., Continued clearing messages as well... Other than that, mostly nothing else... Was probably procrastinating over some more important stuff? Or wasn't in the mood to do them...
Will be trying to revert body clock to normal again...

Urgh the weather is just so humid and hot.... Its so uncomfortable to be sweating every time..
K g'night :3

28/3/2013.. well actually 29/3/2012

Today was a very asd;kljsFlk;sdklj;ser day for me.. last night I couldn't get to sleep... so I had a  bad sleep during this morning and woke up in the morning.

Well.. at least I still try to make progress on cleaning messages.. and making my deviantArt gallery icons...
Next up!~ Either my info & avatar for profile or Favorites' collection icon... Never tried changing that 1 before though so.. I dunno if its an option..

.. Yeap feeling moody now.. one moment alright next feel like rambling randomly on the keyboard...

Mmmmmm Oh right! Still have to decide the playlist changes of what songs/genre I should be listening to in the blog... I have no idea . . .
Welp my body clock is back to nocturnal again = ~ =;; . . .
*Sigh*

I should really stop self-complaining. Perhaps I should draw or start programming  the self-project..

I did the self project once before, was trying out new thing.. But I encountered a camera problem which I've never had before... strangely when going from 1 place to another, the displacement inbetween the camera and the objects translated according to the camera's position is off only when the player is moving. When in a stand-still its all alright which meant that the objects tied to the camera really did translate accordingly to the camera's position. I think its probably some small minor mistake in code or concept mistake.. I had been revising from through the structure of the camera to checking the frame rate and updates timing occurrence but.. nothing.. Not sure to think that maybe I missed something or its some profound error.. Probably a stupid 1 x'DDD

So.. I intend to restart it with my noob camera and slowly evolve it from there.. since the older camera is the most stable camera I can find. Perhaps I will start with almost everything as an early staged component.. because I suspect maybe somewhere along introducing new features or new design pattern things gone wrong.

Oh welp.. Either I should be sleeping now or doing stuffs.. having dilemma about whether to sleep or not. Long-ended dilemma would have the most possibility on staying up all night or half night while short 1 would be sleeping.
I'm guessing it will probably be the long 1 ;n;
Anyways~ that's I got to report for today... I'm off, bai~
-=End of post=-

27/3/2013 Tiring day

I tried to clean up my deviantArt today... for probably almost the whole day.
Revisited a couple of fandoms like yume nikki and other RPG games, Sonic, My little pony, Homestuck... bluhbluh.. you get what I mean...

Managed to play CS 1.6 at night with some friends, prepared some goals to be accomplished tomorrow:

1. Create art for the folders in my gallery & maybe new avatar/self info
2. Revise through what songs I want in the blog's music playlist...
3. Try to complete the traditional art I intend to upload before end of March
4. Maintain pace of clearing message... Yea that would take some number of days....
5. Revisit other fandoms again... maybe a little...

I'm still kinda considering if I really should do any programming tutorial or not..

Gosh almost cleared about maybe about around a thousand messages today... its crazy... about another 10 more thousand and more to go as it stacks on.

I fear that when I go to sleep and wake up the next morning, another thousand just stacks over like.. within 8 hours... Hahaa;;..

Okie dokie~ If I decide not to do the programming tutorials anyway, I'll probably be spending time after clearing up and reorganizing deviantArt... perhaps I can get more involve into the gaming community and self programming projects... Maybe I might even think of taking down the tutorials altogether.. I don't know... we'll see about it~

Mmmm... Yea.. even if I do or not take it down, I'll still probably be uploading self-project progress... To fill the blog more I guess?... More graphics~ yay~... mmm... okay..

Sleep time, g'nights~

-=Update 28/3/2013=-
So i thought about it and removed the programming tutorials... I did save the html codes though as backup...
I came to the conclusion where I wouldn't want to let my lecturers see what I've made... because .. eeeyeaaaa its not approved and I believe probably not everything is done the right or suitable way...
Gosh I'm still not asleep

26/3/2013 Mehh...

Woke up, determined to make a tutorial for the 3D OpenGL Camera so my friend could better understand it. Unable to finish it by today anyways...

Rewatched some episodes of Black Lagoon again during free time, traditionally drew a drumset on sketchbook, digitally finished a crystalize-mosiac pattern for a friend living on the other side of the world.

Spend most time on creating the tutorial. Its really time consuming to comment and format it.
Have not cleaned up DeviantArt account still... really have to do that soon...

Did not do much today... but I still managed to spread the day out by some amount.
Turns out maybe the graphic driver or CS 1.6 yesterday was spazzing out and couldn't open because I was able to run it fine today when I just started the laptop...
....

YES, I use a LAPTOP. I find it somewhat hilarious how like every laptop's directories have a "Desktop" directory on Windows 7 by default and how I had this idea of making a Laptop folder inside of the desktop... That would make it a Virtual platform directory inside a virtual platform directory.. hahas~

*Yawns*
I guess today was still alright... did not play CS yet again though.. oh wells

g'night world~

My body clock... hmmm....
Hmm... just remembered... I had a haircut on Sunday... mehh I must be bored & tired lols...

kay, seriously, nights~

25/3/2013 Self Improvements

Oh well... today I made myself try to restart all my old wanted habits again
I drew some traditional art so that I can upload it on time within March,
I helped draw/edit digital art for a friend...
I played some Minecraft at night with a friend(KYH) where we mostly played around with TNT cannons... The Classics~
And I played a little bit of Stepmania early in the morning..
It'll get better, I will be able to tidy up my DeviantArt and be present in there again..
Most of the time was spent adding songs into the music player of this blog.
Well I got to get some sleep soon, back in the right body clock timing... Yawn~

What I didn't get to do was to play Counter Strike 1.6 and Osu! ...
Cs 1.6 strangely refuse to be opened as the video its using is not supported... I tried many variations via changing video renderings inside of Half Life already..
Hope it fix itself after I come back tomorrow..
My DeviantArt stuffs are still in a mess...
I'll probably post some personal programming self-reminders that any of you can look through them as tutorials although be warned that I'm still a student experimenting on stuffs so I may not be right with my logic at times. Feel free to comment an advices if you would want to.

Blogging updates & things I learn:
Added a Hamster pet gadget.
Modified & formatted codes in programming post (Defining Macros) with Syntax Highlighter.
Modified "About what I do" post to hide all portions by default since its really long and not too interesting.. And rather personal I guess ;;

Alright I'll be off to bed...
Good night guys, God bless~

24/3/2013 About What I Do

Hi, I'm Mervyn and I EAT PO TA TO
OmNoMnOmNoMoM~...

nah... I'm Mervyn and my favorite food isn't potato o w o...
(Warning: Very Long read, please skip ahead if not interested, for personal read)

What I do?:

Artistic portion:

I love creating arts and drawings... both traditional and digital.
My coloring skills aren't really that good so.... let's just omit that > . > . . . ha ha~
I guess I'm alright with drawing digitally on mouse, though some strokes takes trial and error...
and drawing digital probably means that it will be editable if there are some mistakes.
I like drawing traditionally more though I do not draw often nowadays :c

Back in those early days of secondary and primary school, I started drawing comics which were being influenced by the things I used to love playing/watching. My 1st few comics were a Sonic 3 fandom whereby I just drew the gameplay and made it more 3D like.. Then, a chinese teacher introduced my class in primary school to "Xiao Xiao" stickman.. that was when I started drawing about Xiao Xiao as well... Nothing original, mostly down right copying and fantasizing of adventures... of.. a combat specialist.. stickman?.. hahas it was fun... After that Hellsing TV Series influenced my anime drawing style. And as I went on, I found a place on DeviantArt and thought "hey! this place is really cool!" There are so many passionate artists contributing to the site and I was inevitably joined with its community for that time because I was an active appreciator of certain types of art... but as time passed by I became more lazier and started to stop drawing often all together... until today as of now.

During Secondary school I started drawing more original comics, not totally but still it was a great change. The styles & genres were still under the influence of stick-figures & animes I watched. I probably had the most creativity during that period of time. Every time I look back at myself & the work I produced during that time, I wonder how I can get back to being myself when I was doing that...
With that, I'm sad to say that my artistic side has moved on to serve other forms of art.. less of static drawing.

Programming portion:

I'm learning to program as well, studying C++ and I find it really interesting and hard at the same time.
Somehow I had a lot of fun and satisfaction on making certain data structured programs and I had especially more fun with my last semester's Computer Graphic module. Having the opportunity to learn how to create, animate and interact with my own graphics seem really satisfying and fun. The possibilities are endless.
Perhaps I might write what I learnt in this blog as well...
in case I suddenly forgot everything one day... which is highly unlikely but I'll or he'll never know.


When I came out of secondary school, I always wanted to enter the animation course of my school,
but my results wasn't enough for it and so I ended up in a programming course. At 1st I was reluctant and really uncertain. However up till now, I'm happy to say I enjoyed the Programming course.

The pace of learning is really fast especially if you're new to many things and you KNOW what you want to learn. Through self-research, I read a lot of things I thought I should not have read at that time since we (our batch of students) were not taught about it and do not really understand fully or know the consequences of using what we found.

Animating portion:

The reason why I had always wanted to enter the animation course was because I started animating when I was in secondary or primary school... A really long time ago but I was even younger than. When my mind was filled with creativity and I was inspired by Xiao Xiao and other stick-figure animations as well.. I appreciate full-bodied animations done by ScootWhookos as well... I was really in to animating my own set of genres because of all the awesome online influences. I made a Flash animation of my favorite game, Counter Strike called "CS:One-Man Stand" in the year 2010 which took quite a number of months to create. It was probably my biggest successful animation that was released though the pace was too fast.

A drawbacks I have with animations are to have things move totally how you intend them to move..
Like some flash animators tend to get problems like: "How am I supposed to animate THIS?!" and the most noticeable weakness I have is probably the lack of timing management.
My process of making the animation is mostly in these sequences of dependencies:
Import Audio 1st, Imagine of scenario.. Then choose a good angle to view it all & animate it.
I do not feel the need to draw a storyboard, yet my ideas are all over the place.
Only after I learnt my mistake of being messy, I took more structural approaches for handling the objects I create & their tweens, inside scene folders. I started making "Scenes" as though they're the storyboard but with no standard perspective angle. I still just animate it all according with the flow of music.

I'm mostly self-taught on Flash Professional 8 & Adobe side as well,
had some experience with ActionScript 2.0 and a tiny bit from 3.0 ...
I have ceased animating as well since it is a really time consuming process but I'll look forward to it maybe somewhere in the distant future?... I have no idea..

Audio Creation portion:

I learnt about editing and manipulating audios while working with animations and having the desire to create my own music. A few audio tools I use are Audacity & LMMS(Linux Multimedia Music Studio). Although I can't say I excel a lot in the audio portion, I did feel that I have made some music that are quite alright for my beginner stages. I'm self-taught in this field as well.

Gaming portion

I love Counter Strike & I'm still a nerd about it. But I do not play well against good players. I started playing CS at 1st on the XBox. Then I moved to CSCZ where I discovered playable maps in the XBox CS were exclusively placed in the console version only. I learnt that CSCZ had a campaign game called "Deleted Scenes" where those console Maps were actually modified maps from the mission maps of Deleted Scenes. Then I moved from playing in the Internet tab to playing within the LAN tab with a community called Garena and stayed there for a few years playing CS 1.6 before they took CS down. I learnt about the many of the glitches/bugs/custom map gameplay/mods the game and its community have to offer during my stay there.

Another game I'm a nerd with is Minecraft. I started playing it when it was at Beta 1.3, Minecart boosting other minecarts was still there during that point of time. I have not really own Minecraft yet but I still do play it from time to time, maybe with my friends through Hamachi or accessible public servers.

Now of days, I have ceased playing much games as well..

Just starting out!~

Soooo yea... Ahahahas  X)

First time creating a blog... Hope I could entertain you guys on what I do c: . . . .
Hmmm what else to say...

Good day, morning, night & evening to everyone on earth~

Will be posting somewhat daily blogs on things on my mind I guess, so I won't be holding back alright guys? Gonna treat this place like a diary or something... fufufufu~...

A'ight see ya later, I don't understand why I'm so excited just like that ;;
Spread da love~

Sayonara~
Mebin